Today was sorta rough in the beginning. First of all, I didn't feel so great. When I first woke up I just wanted to sleep cuddled up with my blankets. No tears yet and no sad thoughts. It wasn't until I got to work that everyone kept asking me how I was doing. Well honestly I wasn't thinking of him being gone, it was more of I felt like crap and wanted to go home. I didn't want to be working with certain people and listen to patient complain that they wanted their pain medications. It was then I stared at my computer trying to finish a note to the doctor and his picture stood in front of me. Laurie stood behind me and I just held the tears in. I did and did a good job of covering them up. Even though the girls at work are great with me dealing with all of my emotionally roller coaster moments. They all kinda understand to certain point. The only I find at work that really chokes me up is the song "Born Free" by Kid Rock that played at the ceremony. It plays over and over again in the billing department. Thoughts just begin to run though my head and memories.
Even though I have only wrote twice I feel its already helping me express my feelings and feel better. I am sure I will start to drift away from this at some point and forget to write, but I feel its helping now and I am okay with this.
GO TIGERS!
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